The feeling was incredible, it was truly transformative. All this with a heavy heart, tears in my eyes and feeling deeply ashamed and sorry for myself I ran into a sprint, running the pain away (at least trying to). hungover, tired, struggling to breathe I forced myself to go on towards the Linton military camp. I drove to the newly constructed He Ara Kotahi bridge that goes over the Manawatū river and ran. My drinking has always been an escape, something to help me cope with social situations that make me uncomfortable and helps the real 'Shaun' come out.Īfter an end of year party December 2019, that was taken too far by my drinking and a hungover that had me in the darkest of places that I wanted to end every thing, I decided to go for a run. My greatest run ever is one that started a love for the trails and a tool to fight off depression and other destructive thoughts.Ģ019 was a horrible year for me, a major anxiety attack with all the pain and confusion that that brings, as well as many destructive alcohol fueled nights and the dark places the hangovers take someone battling with depression.
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